because basically i don't feel anything right now.
huh.BULLSHIT.
i feel like a loser just staying at home doing nothing..
nothing here means that besides from completing the house chores, i would be watching tv, sleeping more than 8 hours a day..and that's it.
it make me realize that i am hopeless. because except from studying and handling more than 3 books at a time. i haven't done anything that i can actually be proud of..
this 4 months of semester break is the times where i thought I CAN CHANGE.
i wanted to work, earn my own money and have that experience of facing many customer.
but hell. NO. i don't have that chance right now.. i am stuck in this place.. not the home, but the place that i'm living.
but i can't put that it that way.
if i want to change, i should find a way to do it. i should not let anything get in my way.
but hey, i just love to procrastinate, or in other words, i'm just too lazy, trying to find more excuses to give to myself if i fail..
FAILURE..i am getting used to it. and i failed before because of myself anyway..not anyone else.
i do know what my problems are, but i do not know where to start fixing it.
i should stop now, i have a lot to say.
